To my new crush, this is for you

I always 
text you first, 
igniting space, 
is not my thing
I mean, 
I am not 
desperate
for your 
affection, me! No
I daily give 
you compliments, 
Dress nicely 
whenever we 
have supper
I shower you 
with “ I miss you”
messages
Though, 
you only send 
mixed signals!
But me pushing 
forward is my thing
I get super angry
when you cancel plans 
but still text 
you for tomorrow 
The honest part, 
I felt maybe you are
being anxious 
to get into a relationship
therefore I push 
for your attention, 
So, you would 
feel confident 
“ I am the one” 
for you 
But after 
too many years, 
I am getting 
exhausted
Chasing you 
around, is tiring 
Part me know, 
I will never be your girl 
No matter how 
effort I show 
So, starting from
tomorrow, yesterday
or tonight, 
I am giving 
up on you
I am done 
trying to 
impress you, 
stalk you on 
social media for 
the sake of fun
I can’t keep putting 
myself in agony
feeling “ falling in love”
Until you find
someone else
and if we ever 
are going 
to get together
It would be
in my writings, 
that’s what I 
know for sure, 
I will stop 
chasing you, 
But it would 
never mean
that I don’t want you.

Don’t fall in love with me, a Capricorn

Falling in love 
with a Capricorn
Will never make 
you feel ready
But you got 
to be strong,

If you ever fall 
in love with me, 
Make sure to 
keep fighting, 
because I invest 
in relationships 
more than 
my own health!
It may be 
the reason, 
why everyone left,

I have been 
hurt a lot, but 
I will never stop 
believing in love
that’s the gift 
I praise the most
If you ever fall 
in love with me, 
Then you are 
special
Lucky in a 
beautiful way 
I am limited editions, 
we all are

Guidelines, 
read them well
I will change you, 
Make you 
believe in yourself 
Heal your scars, 
so pretty
your past will no 
longer exist anymore
When you are okay, 
Then I will start 
to push you, 
make you go away
Come off on you, 
but trust me 
It’s when I 
need you the most
I also get 
jealous easily, 
I won’t 
question the trust, 
but the questions 
might eat me alive

If I ever made 
you feel sad
cry maybe 
I won’t 
forgive myself
or forget ever
I will stroke 
my throat 
Till pain 
comes pouring 
on my no 
longer chest

If I ever made you fall
in love with me
Be gentle with words, 
cause I am 
a unique edition 
I never forget lines 
that took 
my soul away
They will haunt 
me down 
like a monster 
under the bed

If I ever made 
you fall in love with me, 
Be ready or run 
Run!

You Emotionally Ruined Me

I silency sob, 
Banging my fists
Into the wall
Feeling completely
worthless,
" You are not 
good enough"
These words 
resonated
with me, 
like we are one
I am not 
hateing on you
Instead, 
thank you
It took me years, 
To realize, 
it wasnt me
I deserve better, 
Thankfully, 
I am not 
the same girl
crying
Your actions 
had no 
power on me, 
anymore
Thank you for
giving me 
negativity, 
That made 
me find myself 
For a while, 
I thought 
of giving 
my body 
brusies 
like a 
piece of art, 
But, 
your words 
sooner became 
an inspiration, 
I am a 
source of light 
I was 
drowning 
every single day 
Gladly, 
my hands 
saved me
It took me years
to finally have
my appetite back
gratefully, 
I was able to 
push anxiety away 
from my life
So, 
Instead of being
the crying girl
in my bedroom, 
I am the 
superhero 
I stopped 
crawling 
thinking, 
" I am worthless"
I finally 
have no breakdowns
I am healed!
Honestly, 
I am thankful 
You once, made me 
a monster, but now
I am a life force, 
The happiness kind
You emotionally 
ruined me
I hope you
the best, 
No, I dont 
regret you
Our experiences
together was my 
way to find me
Thank you

I adore you and you probably adore me too

I adore you and you probably adore me too.
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I adore you, 
You probably 
adore me too
But we 
will never know 
because we 
would rather 
not talk about. 
We are captivated
Together 
with mixed signals

I adore you, 
You probably 
adore me too
But it is risky 
To open up, 
To someone, 
I personally, wouldnt
want to jeopard 
our friendship, for 
something unknown, 
Uncertain, unexplained
I already got hurt enough

I adore you, 
You probably 
adore me too
But, if you do 
There would be 
feelings, I would feel
I would be a priority 
Not like getting a text
randomly every week
Your mind would be 
getting drove crazy!

I adore you, 
You probably 
adore me too
perhaps, its only 
A thrill, a few affects
inspirations, and feelings
I adore you, 
But I need to stop
No, I dont want to
and maybe you 
adore me too, 
but that’s not enough

Moving on from an almost relationship

We were almost lovers,
 almost made it
the hardest type
Despite of the short time
We were the favorite 3 in the morning
But in time,
We stopped wondering
holding hands,
You didnt told me your two top colours
or you almost felt for me
Yes, we were unlabeled
We both deserved the best
Someone who care
A love that is certain
a treat, like you are not an option
Moving on from an
almost relationship is endless pain
and accepting it is more aching
The pain will grow old and dies
But never even doubt your worth
Almost relationships
Both tell a tale of someone
with a “one that got away”
 And as much as you’d
like to forget these people,
at times they‘re stuck on you,
like a tattoo,
There are nights
when you remember them
as if it all happened yesterday
and you begin to wonder:
could we have worked
if I did this or would
he have not left if I did that?
 This is exactly
what we do wrongBut instead we should
Pick up the pieces
Move on

Farewell my Foe

Because I was the best

I could ever be,

You walked away,

Never looked back,

Your body language

Appeared to be blind,

More of becoming a deaf, but

You can walk away!

And never look back.

Perhaps, find someone new

Who will fall, for your

Sweet Brown eyes

As for I,

I will pick up the pieces

And carry myself home

To the place where

We first held the story

Dont cry dear,

Or suffer your soul.

Perhaps at least to pretend,

Its me to blame,

As I held our forties,

Leave them locked up,

And,

If it wasn't for our fights

I am sure, you wouldn't

Have left,

Nor,

Let our love

Grow harder, 

More than it seems

Dont pretend to be sad,

I am sure, you will forget

At the time,

When we both had our kiss

Farewell, my foe

And no worries

About the past,

Thought it was you,

That I loved, 

But for now, 

I am telling you 

Goodbye,

Farewell my foe

All I asked for

I have looked around, 

No signs to lead for you, 

Aired up the sky, 

Bullets hit the ground, 

Religions prove angles. 

Books write stories, 

No destination, 

Am I a myth?Nor an illusion

Cant be human?No way a solution,

Could I be dead?

Or immortal

Maybe with or without

Emotions,

I searched for you,

Rules and examination, 

Knocked my face, 

Put me underground, 

All I asked for, 

For you to help me out, 

A lighten candle 

To seek me not, 

But all I have found, 

Were legands 

That punched me down, 

All I asked for, 

Was a road, in my dreams, 

Maybe wake me 

Throught and in 

Those blooms, 

All I asked for, 

For your appearence, 

Maybe nothing more 

And in the end, 

I ask myself, 

Am I a zero?

Somehow near to

To become a hero