This is Me,

This is me accepting the fact that you are leaving
With no kind of arguments or negotiations
Without tears or noises nor letters
Just like a resignation note to our relationship
This is me cracking slowly with what left of  me,
 No turn or do over, or one last night
This is me telling you " I love you"
and leaving quicker than turning on a light button
Its the last episode of " The bold" or " friend"
The heartache, the pain inside the chest
the inner lost, the last end
I must confess I wont lie and not wish to rewind things over
maybe change few actions or sayings
there will always be a part of me that wished if things werent like this
but this is me letting you go, hardly, slowly sadly
this is me missing you, when you are calling and I dont answer
where I would curl up in bed with a draft of my own writings
and enhance a razor into my skin to become a sculpture full of rainbows
and stories that will pour my heart out.
Its when I would look in the room we used to read books to each other
and not find you sitting there staring at the color of my eyes
This is me approving the fact
on erasing every single memory that ever happened
from the day I was born till the day I push you
This is me saying yes and cheers to a new change
This is me waving goodbye and letting you go
This is me grabbing my hand with its bruised veins
slowly demanding you to go, this is me lying to you
This is me lying with the feelings that I wont miss you
But, how can someone not miss themselves?
This is me letting myself go,
give up
this is me giving up
and feeling relief
this is me lying
this is me letting me go