HAF

     Don’t text him, don’t text him and don’t text him!

It’s a scene where I demand my brain on not doing it, 

Don’t text him, I keep on talking to  myself. On how doing it might give he signs

On how desperate I might look. He will call me clingy and then lose interest in me

But I also know, no matter how many days I managed

to last without texting you, I shall always crack wide open

I will try to shut down all of my thoughts whenever 

I listen to chasing cars by Snow Patrol, Promise!

Or if I crossed that view on the last place in the city

I won’t stop and look to the view, I shall pass by only

Promise! But it would be hard for me, if I walked by our favorite 

coffee shop “Green Turtle” it can drag me back to you,

      I can never resist promise! It’s not always texting though, I might be able to hold myself

back from finding you on my contact list, least for a while now, promise!

But it doesn’t matter because I will end up liking one of your pictures

    you know from my undercover account,

 I might as well see your many angles pictures and just witness

  your smiles as I can. And if I stumble across a photo of you and a lady

    I will search through her photos, too. See, I honestly tried to stop myself from caring about you, 

   but I, I lost my self control, whenever I see your picture or hear your name

    Somehow I can see the past we once had and Even after everything we have been through after

the shitty things I did and the opposite as well, 

I would still say hello if I saw you in the streets, or at least not just run away

   No amount of reason would be able to hold me back, I know it’s been a while since we last seen each other, it feels like it hasn’t been long “ Stalking” on social media 

I tell myself not to mention you to my friends for the thousandth time, 

I tell myself not to replay our memories

But I do, I do because you’re the only one 

Who made me who I am and loving myself the way I should

I hope one day you would realize that

Even we didn’t meet again,  If you ever read this by mistake

Thank you “HAF”