Dont Run back

Walk away from the person who broke you
You owe it to yourself, at least so

When you had too much to drink that night,
Dont run back in the moment of weakness
When loneliness feels right
Dont throw all the progress, you have made
Dont look for healing in the person who broke you once,
Dont go back, I dont want you to struggle all over, all alone
and have the same feeling of missing and wanting them,
I am telling you it is going to be hard,
It will feel like someone is taking your strength away from you
But you can resist it, I am sure you can
Dont let their promises  change your mind
Maybe they swore of change
But this time put trust in you, in yourself
No one can change in one night
Dont run back
Admitting that they are sorry wont solve it,
Wont stop it, especially after the way they treated you,
When you had too many drinks,
and watched endless love stories movies,
You will desperately want them,
because under the name of love,
But that doesnt mean weakness
Its mean your a human being
and thats alright,
Just dont run back to them,
Dont run back

Help Me (Spoken Word)

This is how you shall help me, 
The girl who is good at hiding her pain, 
I am my downfall right now, 
No one seem to notice anyways, 
and I am sure no one will notice,
I dont let anyone see me at my breaking points,
Instead I will laugh, joke around and act it all out.
I fool myself most of time, and everyone else,
But if you look at me, and give a good stare deeply,
without me noticing,
Just look at me even when your not looking at me directly,
even from a distance, and
when I laugh, you will see all of my true emotions
going out of me, if you look closer
you would see my tears streaming
down my face, only! If you look closer.
And If you ever want to ask me on how I feel,
never ask me when I be surrounded by people, I might breakdown
and its not easy for me, I might pour myself
on you and I might ask you to leave me,
when in fact I will be saying " Please dont leave"
Instead I will be wanting you to hold my hand, tightly
until your hands moist with its sweats,
and do not ever let go of it,
Trust me, you will be my strength that grips.
All you need is one look, and
you will see the darkness that will eat you, scar you up,
and dont give up one me,
Tell me, or remind me of how worthy I am,
Even when in fact I dont believe so,
Dont let my emotions and stubborn push you,
I might find many ways to get you tired of me,
To get tired from my anxieties and dramas that I have,
I will make you leave, after all I dont want to bother you
Dont leave me, you can help me,
Dont leave me, you cant help me