Do not Fall for I

Do not fall for I, 

For my insides are like dying flowers,

I am broken and what left in me, 

Is my darkness of the night?

Do not fall for I, 

Because my loneliness, 

Will make you ache in places, 

You never felt it before, 

And my damaged reflections, 

Will burn holes in your face,

Do not fall for I,

As my mind is a haunted place, 

It screams and kill, it does not relent

Do not fall for I,

Because instead of giving you freedom,

I will lock you inside the gates of my sorrow

There would be nothing left,

Do not fall for I,

My love for you cannot be true,

It would be cursed, of all the things, 

You ever hated before, 

I will be more powerful than a poisonous snake,

Do not fall for I,

I cannot even bare to look at my face,

So how could you do?

Even understand the mess of my heart,

Do not fall for I,

I am not an easy person, 

I will always find excuses and push you,

Even when my body is safe next to you,

Do not fall for I, 

I can’t be your motivation, when you’re tired, 

Instead I might kill your creativity, 

And bury it in me,

Do not fall for I, do you understand me?

Because simply, I am not enough,

If you haven’t notice yet, 

I was never that, I shall never be that, 

So do not fall for I, 

I assure you, your life would be hell,

Not even close to happy endings, 

Not sure of anything at all,

So do not fall for I, 

I am not enough, for even one chance, 

Of anything that grabs happiness in one sentence 

I am not enough, 

Do not fall for I, I command you, do not

I am allowed to be heartbroken

StopTelling me, 

To get over him,
Oh! I am allowed to be heartbroken

First of all, 
I will never apologize
for my feelings, 
so, don’t you tell me, 
“He is not worth my tears”
If I want to cry, then I will cry
Until my mascara hide my face away,
Get drunk texting him,
After a few too many shots of tequila
I will never apologize for having feelings,

Second of all,
I won’t get over him,
Unless I freak out first
I know, I don’t need him
That I am better off without him,
Or how any guy would be lucky, to have me
But for now, I won’t get over him
At least not for now, 
See, it’s how I get my closure
Please let me destroy myself
So, later I would have a chance,
To put myself back together,
Otherwise, he will always be in my mind


Third of all,
Why should I hide my pain,
And put a happy face?
For example, when I have the flu,
I don’t pretend that I am in a perfect health, 
Why when I am depressed, I should cry behind doors
I don’t want to lie to my friends,
About being fine, just to make them comfortable
Its not! Life is not comfortable



Number Four,
Little things mean so much to me
I know that single life isn’t that bad,
Or boys aren’t everything, 
You know, 
I would still cry if I got fired, 
And the finale of FRIENDS, 
Broke my inner piece, 
I got upset when bad things happens,
But it’s the way things go around here,

The fifth thing,
Love, is all we talk about,
Half of my time, 
I am told that I should be happy,
Its hard, especially when 
I am bombarded with commercials, 
On happy couples and 
photos of #Relationship goals
Or tips how to find love, 
It reminds me how single and lonely I am 

Number Six,
Screw my reputation, 
I don’t care what I look like 
In other people eyes,
So I am not going to hide my crazy,
I would rather embrace who I am,
Being myself, is more important
Than letting anyone fall for someone else,

Finally,
I will get over him, eventually
One day, maybe tomorrow, next year
But I will, get over him
And I will look back and laugh
But today, is not the day,
Today I need to bask in my misery
Today, I need to think about all 
The romantic things you said to me,
Look too many looks on the old texts,
Mourn my failed relationship,
Today, I want to be sad, 
I want that, it’s the only way
Tomorrow I will be truly happy

Some days

Some days, I wonder
If I will ever have a love like ours again
I write a lot of things about love, you deserve
Self- love and hope to find the right relationship
However, there are some days, Where I ask myself,
“ What if I never find that kind of love again?”
I mean, if I am honest,
 never loved someone as much as I loved you
After we went our separate ways I found myself
Afraid to fall in love that much again,
I had even barely managed to put myself back together,
When we ended, and I just wasn’t sure, I could do it
for a second time,
I still remember how it felt to love you,
How I was head over heels, you and I,
we were something unexpected, yet!
something wonderful,
We had a relationship that a lot of people told me,
They wish they had, and I know I wasn’t your first love,
But I also know you loved me deeply,
We always supported each other, and fought our battles
Heads on and hand in hand,
It was safe, it was almost like home
You were like home to me,
We didn’t make it, the home we built,
 caught fire and cold,
That made us sick in a way that left no choice,
 But to walk away,
Those days have long passed,
However it’s been years now
Since our home burned and left to heaven,
And although I have had a relationships,
none of them
were like what you and I had,
I haven’t fallen in love in such a way
 and it doesn’t feel like anyone else
Have loved me the way you did,
Despite all of that,
I still hold onto hope,
I still believe that eventually,
I will have another love that is so incredible that I will want it
Around for the rest of my life,
Maybe we can build a palace or a mountain view,
 Be happy and fully again,
But it will never be like the home we had once,
By Sally Bani Hani