I will love you

 I will love you on the days, you chose not to wake up,

When your bedroom is haunted

Through negative thoughts,

Where it feels like we are deaf

by the color of our eyes

Where music is making us blind to the core,

I will love you. I will be the voice,

the inner sound inside of you,

and I will be your motivated voice, I shall push you,

I will let you be yourself and glad,

I will be the laughter on

On the other end of the telephone

telling you about a memory we had shared,

I will be your second-hand,

slowly putting my fingers on your cheeks,

lips and down-to-earth,

I will love you on the blue days,

where you don't want to continue,

when you are staring at a blank wall,

motionless, emotionless, and silent.

When everything you ever dreamed about

becomes a scratch on paper,

I will love you when you're defeated,

ached and humble. I will love you

I will be your shoulder, your second leg,

I will be the thighs if you want to,

I will be a healing body that comforts you

No, I refuse to be a silent breathing person toward you,

I will be out loud, I will love you

when you don't want to love yourself,

when your flaws wake up,

when you no longer know who you are,

I will be with you, I will share with you those pictures

we took on Instagram, on the night you gave me a box of fries.

On the night when you said "I love you"

and got hit by a car,

on the night and on the night

we shared memories

I will love you, when you're laying down on the bed,

not being able to move,

I will hold your both hands

and we will pray together,

like one person. Yes, we will,

I will love you even when everybody is gone,

I will love you, till you last close your eyes.

I will love you. I will love you

even if those mother hell machines stop,

where that square full of heartbeats

becomes a straight line, or

if those helping people ask me to go away, even

if the sun suicide itself,

I will love you.

I will love you with all of my heart,

I will love you, and I will still love you

and I will never stop loving you,

even if you not here with me,

even when the room is full of people wearing black,

I will love you.

I will love you every single day,

when I wake up and you're not here beside me,

I will love you.

I will love you.

I will always love you

For my young love, this is for you

On August 15, 2004,

I saw you at the skate park.

You were with some friends.

bragging with youق

blue-stripe roller skates

I still remember the first time

You looked at me,

My stomach twirled.

You used to

Follow me everywhere.

trying to talk to me while

I was with my best friend,

You asked me, "What was my name?"

At the ADNOC gas station near "family park", Abu Dhabi 

I used to come

every weekend to the park,

Just so I can see you,

Back then, you were the

reason for my happiness.

I introduced you to my best friend.

and you did the opposite.

and ever since.

We were attachable, an infinite

I still remember our first day.

You took my hand and

said how beautiful I looked,

but back then, even butterflies

felt so shy instead of

Your imperfections are my

true first young love.

I used to put your

song list on my CD player

because I wanted to impress you.

back then.

On the 21st of July 2005,

It took you forever to say

“I love you.”

and I couldn’t be any happier.

I felt the definition of love.

holding hands under the rain,

but it rarely rained.

You used to wear braces.

just like me, and every weekend

We used to decide on which color

Do we pick, so we can match?

God! We were so innocent.

I still have our love letters.

On November 11, 2005,

When my parents decided

We should leave the country.

and go far.

I thought of all the jokes and

just lay down

I pretended that I was deaf.

But I failed with

high expectations, and

I grew up in denial.

"It's all a dream."

On the 2nd of February 2006,

He asked me if he could

Meet my parents.

Maybe he can convince them.

So, months later,

packing the memories

I had at the small apartment

in Iskteqalal Street,

It was the day when

I was heading to hell!

At a young age, I was 15

The only time

we ever communicated

was either MSN or IMVU.

( naruto92@hotmail.com)

Trust me, that address

doesn’t work any more.

On the 12th of June 2006

The boxes in our house were gone.

You can hear a pin drop as

I looked into my room,

The paint became bright white.

So empty and cruel,

My friends were downstairs.

I can see waterfalls streaming

down their faces.

You were standing on the stairs,

with my love letter as I kept

safe and sound.

until the days have passed.

On July 20, 2006

The unpacking was done.

I installed MSN, so we can talk.

On the 25th of December 2008

It was my birthday.

and what have I received?

Is bullying from my classmates

Who would want a new kid?

But I would have no sadness.

I got my first young love by my side!

On September 17, 2009,

Last week, you called and

said how much you missed me,

How you wanted to meet up fast,

But how so?

When we are 2,772.6 km

by an airplane.

So, yes

We had our first-ever fight,

kind of relationship type

But you never knew.

how much I long for us to meet.

Dare each other,

Who can skate faster?

or jump higher?

It was my last year of education.

Your phone was off,

Why was your phone off?

I nudged you a hundred times.

but you were offline!

I called "3191979" million seconds,

I had my first exposure.

with aches back then.

On November 12, 2009

I got a phone call from my best friend.

saying, " He wanted to surprise you."

But sometimes faith doesn't like us.

I could notice the shivers on her body.

But I made myself clear.

that everything is fine.

She said, " Cars!

"The four-wheel objects are so dangerous."

Why would anyone even drive them?

She said, "I mean, it's nice to have one.

But why? "Life is so much out there,

Why would anyone want to do it?"

So, I cried! I did, but I didn't know why.

So I cried myself out.

She said, "He couldn't make it."

The wheel flipped."

He didn't make it.

He didn't make it! He didn't make it.

He didn't make it. He didn't make it.

Ever since something changed within me

Like my inner voice died, somehow

Having a heartbreak at the age of 17

is more painful than anything on earth.

He didn't make it! He didn't

It's been exactly 2920 days since the earth

She has lost one of her angels.

It's been 8 summers already!

In memory of young love,

It was the last car ride you took.

The one you wanted to surprise me

In a long-distance relationship,

The last thing you said to me was,

You loved me for the way I smiled.

And I blushed, but you didn’t see.

He didn't make it! He died

He didn't make it! He died

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